Oh, crikey...
Dec. 26th, 2002 05:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kageotogiI shouldn't be posting this here because I'm going to be talking about one of my friends and she's on my friend's view and I'm on hers but I don't want her to read this because she'll either think I'm being stupid or that I'm acting like her mom... I've got to put this down somewhere though, and this is here, so...
Uh...
Just got to keep my fingers crossed, I guess.
I'm really worried about Abby. Okay, so the cutting doesn't bother me a whole lot--she's not the only person I know who cuts. Hell, if you get right down to it, I'd be hypocritical to say anything bad about the cutting. I know just how much of a power-kick it can be and how much better it can make a person feel. But jeez, there is a point when you've got to realize that it's not working and that there should be other ways to help yourself out.
For some reason, and correct me if I'm wrong, I think that when you cut practically every day, you may have reached that point.
It's not the cutting alone that bothers me. It's the kind of hopeless attitude she has lately and the depressed themes behind every damn lj entry she's been writing lately. It's the way she seems to be shirking away from the people who love her--even Scott. And that suicide note she wrote as a joke a few weeks back fucking scared me. Quite honestly, I believed it. If she hadn't gone on to say that it was just a way to make herself get rid of some stress or if I had checked that lj for updates any earlier, I probably would have dialed the three magic emergency numbers and given them her address.
Gods, if it was anybody else I would tell somebody who could do something about all of this, but it's Abby. I love Abby, she's one of the best friends a person can have, but I just don't know what to do anymore. Talking to her sure as hell won't do it and telling her parents definitely isn't the answer (for many reasons--one, she would hate me if I told them and two, I've never met either one). I'm running out of ideas and I don't know what to do next...
Abby, if you did read this, don't be angry with me for talking about you like this. If you like, I'll remove this entry. I'm just fucking worried about you is all--I'm your friend, I have a right to be.
Don't make me worry any more, okay?
Please?
Uh...
Just got to keep my fingers crossed, I guess.
I'm really worried about Abby. Okay, so the cutting doesn't bother me a whole lot--she's not the only person I know who cuts. Hell, if you get right down to it, I'd be hypocritical to say anything bad about the cutting. I know just how much of a power-kick it can be and how much better it can make a person feel. But jeez, there is a point when you've got to realize that it's not working and that there should be other ways to help yourself out.
For some reason, and correct me if I'm wrong, I think that when you cut practically every day, you may have reached that point.
It's not the cutting alone that bothers me. It's the kind of hopeless attitude she has lately and the depressed themes behind every damn lj entry she's been writing lately. It's the way she seems to be shirking away from the people who love her--even Scott. And that suicide note she wrote as a joke a few weeks back fucking scared me. Quite honestly, I believed it. If she hadn't gone on to say that it was just a way to make herself get rid of some stress or if I had checked that lj for updates any earlier, I probably would have dialed the three magic emergency numbers and given them her address.
Gods, if it was anybody else I would tell somebody who could do something about all of this, but it's Abby. I love Abby, she's one of the best friends a person can have, but I just don't know what to do anymore. Talking to her sure as hell won't do it and telling her parents definitely isn't the answer (for many reasons--one, she would hate me if I told them and two, I've never met either one). I'm running out of ideas and I don't know what to do next...
Abby, if you did read this, don't be angry with me for talking about you like this. If you like, I'll remove this entry. I'm just fucking worried about you is all--I'm your friend, I have a right to be.
Don't make me worry any more, okay?
Please?
HAPPY NEW YEAR
Date: 2003-01-01 08:22 am (UTC)~Stevie~
PS: whats your plans for today?
Re: HAPPY NEW YEAR
Date: 2003-01-01 09:21 am (UTC)I can't do anything today--I've got homework and stuff to do--but do you want to do something this weekend? I think I'm free... ^_^
Re: HAPPY NEW YEAR
Date: 2003-01-01 10:13 am (UTC)